How'd I Get Here, Again?

I'm a little disoriented with all the latest pushes and pulls. It's been a week with difficult news, the kind of things that disrupt your very mind, that runs and runs and runs laps around your head. Family illness and big changes for an organization I am - somehow, I don't know how - heading.

My personal news is making me wobbly and heartsore; the community involvement is more the sensation of a gripping hyper focus, the kind that comes with juggling and not wanting anything to fall down in an ugly heap.

How did all this happen?  The unpredictability of the path, I suppose.
What is, is.
I'm trying to breath that in a little more. When I really do it, I see it can slow down the run, run, running in my head.